Serious Post for the Internet Folk

Do you know what I dislike about work? I sit at my desk, dreaming of all of the things I would like to accomplish and trips I would like to take. When you spend 50 hours on the clock + 5 hours of driving each week, there isn’t really a lot of time left for the little things.

Work is important, not only for financial reasons, but also for a person’s character. I am fully capable of being lazy, but I am also a darn hard worker, when I want to be. Give me a class in school and I’ll ace it; put me out in the desert with a shovel and I’ll excavate until the sun goes down.

But sitting at a desk? Sometimes it seems like a waste, you know? Aside from strengthening my writing skills, catching up on the news, and being politically informed, I don’t really grow very much.

I think back on the summer when I was unemployed. Yes, there were a lot of boring times and I wished desperately for a job, but I also felt satisfied in my role as a homemaker and a wife. I might have even been a little bit happier. My sewing machine wasn’t covered in dust, we had home cooked meals on the table, and the house was always beautiful.

The boring parts of my wifely days, I thought, would quickly disappear if I had children to take care of and clean up after. (Although the days would probably get a lot harder, both physically and emotionally.)

I look forward to being a stay-at-home mom, but sometimes I worry that I am too susceptible to Grass is Greener Syndrome. I need to be happier with where I am in the present. I think I spend too much of my time in the future.

It can be very difficult to balance.